Sunday, August 15, 2010 @6:05 AM
i'm scared...
i'm scared of going for it,
for doing it,
maybe pain,
maybe fear?
i say so much about facing fears,
yet when it comes to then,
fear consumes me.
i fled,
i caouldn't take the fact that... i don't know.
fuck...
i messed up i guess...
shy as i am.
i feel as though i have no where to express myself openly.
i feel cornered.
i feel like i want to just run and face everything,
but i can't take back what i did or didn't do.
i'm sorry i messed up.
i'm sorry i was an idiot.
i'm sorry for everything.
getting things right every and each time.
guess just not this time?
i wish i couldve,
maybe it's not meant to be?
i just want to fly...
i just want to make it.
i just want to love.
love you.
i just want to love.
freely,
openly.
be loved back.
i guess that's it.
i just want and wish for a world full of love.
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Saturday, February 24, 2007 @4:57 PM
okay lot better nooooow!!! weeeee!!! got a gig tonight... yeahhhh. gas haus. gonna be cock lahhh. but what the hell! im just gonna have a ball of a time! and give everybody a damn damn good show. hehe. oh well ainsley and tim... good luck! my sister is auditioning for kids central too. mauahahahaha. okay see ya!!!!
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@12:33 AM
hold me there,
and just sit and wonder,
what the world is really about,
and how we are our own destructor,
and saviour,
procrastination,
its such a beautiful, beautiful thing,
procrastination and ignornce,
above all,
are our perfect vices,
that'll bring us to our own down fall,
humanity is blind,
we live in a society that worships corparate businesses,
and controlled by greed,
however,
we can open our eyes,
and once again,
pull us out of this highway to hell,
redirect our mind sets,
and save ourselves,
from the majority.
ah damn screw that shit up there.
hahahah!
feel a bit better :D
heh heh
today was not bad...
okay ta ta!
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Saturday, February 10, 2007 @3:59 AM
Sean fucking never updates, so here I am. :)
Fucking well for O levels la, yay to horticulture! Yay.
I see one star in the sky.
Wow.
<3
-Melanie.
Wtf.
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007 @2:03 PM
came up with a new song!!!! muahahaha. its a bit more up beat. anddd has irish folk influences... a biiiiit. isnt so wonderful to be alivvvvveeeeeeeeeeee... totally forgot about the bbq at my place tmr. oh boy. well the show must go on!!!! hahahah! yupppppp. see you all later. do you think i should stick with his network marketting thing? no idea.... cause all i wanna do now. is get an easy job. NAD have FUN while i can!!!! no idea. u tell me. cause imn confused!!1 hahah! see ya laterrrrr
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Thursday, February 01, 2007 @6:08 PM
lifes like a big salad.youve got the crunchy juicy parts,the icky yucky bitter parts,and the salad dressing that just makes everything better,add in a few chunks of tuna,and it just makes it more interesting.did that make sense???
no idea...
oh well.
im back from africa, and im aware i havent been writting in this for 34968340981374 (kazzilion) years.
but hey! haloooooo!!! im BCAK
wait i spelt that wrong....... BACK*
so anyway, i have this question for you to ponder on... just one of those random ones...
what would you do if you knew you had one last day to live?its so simple,
and asked so many times,
but is always able to make me stumble a bit.
i take so many things for granted... sigh
yupp
...
...
bye!
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Thursday, January 04, 2007 @12:12 AM
christmas eve (dinner at dads and christmas mass........cough cough)
shona and sean's xmas party(ppl got high high high....and happy. dad got a birthday muffin.)new years eve(countdown next to a bangla spraying confetti all around.....then shona's house)cock ups and cock ups.......then...........errrrr.errrrrrrr... muahahahahaha
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